Sometimes it is hard to admit that things do not go smoothly all the time. It's hard to allow for that vulnerability and share the reality that some days, weeks, or even seasons of mission work are not always easy. Right now, I am in one of those valleys.
I am at a point where I am so passionate about what I am doing, but struggling with being away from home. I am living my dream here in Africa, but life in America seems so appealing. I am struggling with feeling disconnected and separated from life on the East Coast. I am both pouring out and receiving love from the boys at the orphanage and my baby girl, but I am longing for the tangible connection with my loved ones stateside. I so want time here to stop so that I can drink in the blessing that is mission work, meanwhile another part of me is willing time to fly so I can be running into those long awaited hugs back home.
You see, it's a battle. A time when everything is good, and yet I am struggling. I don't share this so you can feel bad for me, but rather so that you can pray for me. But not just me, each and every missionary around the globe that is feeling this same way for this given time.
This week, be in prayer that God would wrap His ever present arms around my fragile heart and remind me that even in the valley He is faithful! Pray that this truth is one that I would not just believe, but accept. Pray that this time of discouragement and missing home would pass quickly and I would find myself feeling fueled and ready to face whatever God has for me in the next 4 months here.
